Why I Broke Up and You Should, Too!

It has been a year after my last breakup and yes, I have definitely moved on. I just thought of writing something about it now than write about it during that dark state of nonsense.  Many people have asked me what I did in order to recover in such a short span of time. It is hard and saddening but a part of me is looking forward to the day when I would finally share my heart and my life with someone again. I got my hands busy, my feet busy and my mind very busy until it hurts no more. My only option is to be happy and I have to really move on to be in that state of bliss. It was drastic because I really moved on literally. I went abroad and have gone to different places to experience a fresh, new ambiance that I so fully deserved.

Apparently, I do not regret the fact that I ended it because it made me stronger and it definitely freed me from the cage of I-don't-know-what-will-happen-to-us state. I would not say it made me better because back then, I think I am a terrible freak who would easily get affected when something bad happens. So, it is safe to say that I am a good person now. But yeah, I think it made me a better person because now, I have a better understanding of why all these things happened. Back then, I was seeing things vaguely and even if I was able to see that I should be better off without him, I chose to stay with him because of his pleading. I tell you, it is not worth it. So better break up now that you are still floating in the water before you sink and could not get up because you have drowned already.

Moreover, I think we should see the good part about breaking up with someone especially if the relationship is futile. After so much concerted effort from both parties and nothing worked, a breakup is a good decision. I have a life and that other individual has a life, too. I like us to have the best life we could have by giving each other the chance of living our lives on our own, by becoming the best persons we could be. I did not give in when he asked for another chance, since we always have chances to prove ourselves that time when we were still in that relationship. Seven years are long years where we could definitely try and give chances to each other so why would I risk another day, week, month or year just to see if this time it will work out? Since I already gave many chances without counting, it is just best not to give him a chance again but to give myself a chance this time. I have to give myself the chance of feeling love and being taken cared of and not being taken for granted. I may be hurt, yes, but I do not consider myself broken. My heart may be badly bruised and was in ICU for many years but I have recovered my heart. Luckily, I did not need  a heart transplant for that. 

No offense meant for other people who gave many chances and ended up happily in each other's arms, again. I am glad that for them it worked out well but I don't think I can endure another year of agony and misery just because of giving our relationship a chance. It could also mean that the same course of events could happen again or even worse! I do not want to get to the point where I would hate myself because I prolonged a useless relationship. I realized that people come to our lives not just to love us but to teach us a lesson. And, I have learned my lesson the hard way. Now, you have a choice. Would you dare to end a bad relationship or endure it for the rest of your life? You decide. 

Choose wisely!

Although I do not live by quotes, I love sharing quotes to inspire people. This is my first quote image on my Get Inspired Quotes Page on Facebook. There are times when we wake up and we feel bad but then, we have a choice. It is entirely up to us on how our days would go and on how we lead our lives while we are still breathing.  

How to Use a Mac PC?

Do you know how to use a Mac? Honestly, I do not know. I cannot say that I know how to use it because I only know the basic functions and not all of it! I am not an adept Windows user but somehow, I am able to navigate it on my own. Maybe because it was the first operating system that I have used in my PC. Well, you would be surprised to know that I do not own my own PC or laptop per se. The PC that I am referring to is the PC I am using at the office, the one I am renting over the shop or from a generous friend who understood that I am still not buying my own PC. Buying my own PC is still on hold and I would discuss that in another topic.

I look like a wimp using Mac and trying some Windows commands hoping that it would work. Okay, some of the keyboard commands did work. Hahaha! It was a hilarious experience asking friends who are also newbies to teach me how to use this cool computer. What I like about it is its big screen, perfect for my blurred eyes that tend to droop every now and then. But for work purposes that have deadlines, I still use my laptop (yeah, the office laptop) to get the jobs done asap. Well, I will just have to get to the office early to have my mini Mac practice. Apparently, I am too shy to ask them how to use this gigantic box with a cool track pad that lets me glide my fingers smoothly.

I am looking forward to work tomorrow. It is not for work, but for using Mac. I am just kidding. My boss would kill me when he gets to read this piece of shit that I have written. Yeah, I just wrote some crazy stuff now. I just learned how to insert the cd on the monitor's side and how to eject the cd by pushing the eject button on the keyboard. It is so small that if you are not keen, you would not notice. Good thing, my friend pointed it out to me. Yes, he saw the eject button and mind you, he is also new to Mac. He is wearing his spectacles. Hehehe!

When I Need Someone to Talk to

Why is it when I need someone to talk to, no one is around? I always find myself in that kind of situation these past few weeks. Yeah, I am kinda used to being alone but then there were times when it will just hit me rock bottom. I am not needy of someone or I am not being melodramatic over the most mundane of things. I am just wondering why when there are times when I really need someone to talk to, there is no one whom I can share a conversation with. I am not venting out some negative speeches or thoughts. Sometimes, all I need is just someone who would just listen or someone who would just be there.

Okay, blame it on my hormones because I have my period now. That's it. Period.

Thought: Good thing I have God, so I just pray. Yeah, I admit it can be pretty difficult but then I am used to it anyway. I just have to let these words out of my system. ;)

On Reaching Our Dreams

It is nice to dream especially when visualizing that our dreams will become a reality someday. And, when it happens before our very eyes, we will be surprised and blown away. But, I think we should ask ourselves this question, "Is what we are doing today getting us close to our dreams?"

Too often, people tend to drift away from their focus and forget what is really essential in the first place. I think we should evaluate ourselves so our time would not be wasted. In that way, we would be closer to reaching our dreams.

Patience Tests

If there is something that I lack in my values or virtues department, it is patience. I am not saying that I am too impatient and that I am nonchalant about things. Obviously, it is through my patience that I am being tested.

In the past few days, I have learned to be cool even if I am not. Keeping my head cool amidst the hot weather is in itself a challenge. I also had several migraine attacks and dehydrations, followed by slight moodswings and hungerpangs.

I also dealt with irate and inconsiderate human beings but it is an understatement since what I am experiencing now is nothing compared to a person wanting to live, fighting for his life and looking forward to better tomorrows.

Yes, I know that I should prolong my patience. I should stop complaining though. I will be "more" patient. In time, I will be a virtuoso in patience. And, maybe, conduct patience and mood workshops especially for people with a doctorate degree in Anger Management.

I Wanna Sleep But...

I want to sleep but my mind is still working. I can feel it move I think and it dances, rejoicing in the fact that it craves to learn and know more. I can't wait to get up again and fill my braintank later. But, for now, I guess, I just have to sleep to replenish my strength.